» Listening: NIN - Even Deeper «
» Feeling: Happy «
Our last NIN show...
We'd been excited about this since it was announced. Did the pre-sale thing and got great seats. Then Trent started tweeting contests for tickets and backstage passes. It seemed like we could never win. Some of our twitter peeps got passes and such. While I was happy for them I was also really jealous. I was getting ticked that we couldn't get any. I felt like a jerk for being jealous, but I was.
Well, a little less than a week before our show Trent announced an amazing opportunity. A chance to meet the band AND help someone who is fighting for their life. So, I donated $300 to save this man's life. In fact, a lot of people did. To the tune of over $800,000. So many that Trent had to stop the donations. Too many people to accommodate.
But we got ours in. So, we got to meet TR and have something signed. But what? 4 CDs survived my teen years. And only one CD jacket. I contemplated having them sign my tour shirt from '95. But, meh. I may want to wear it again. The day before the show we got two new CDs to be signed. Me: The Downward Spiral. Jaye: The Slip. It was so fitting. Old fan and new fan. *tear*
The day of the show we hopped into The Slip Car and headed to KC. No snafus. No bad directions. There were even fucking SIGNS this time. No ticket problems. We got to meet Deighe and Casee waiting to be let in. We even saw the dude from the Columbia show who was so low on sleep that he started hallucinating. He said he got more sleep this time.
The meet and greet.... OMG. I was able to make some small talk with Robin and Justin but I had things I was going to say to Trent and they all went out the window. Embarrassing. I said... "It's so amazing to meet you!" "Can you sign this?" "Thank you!" and that was fucking it. God. Jaye talked to TR more than I did, she even told him about The Slip Car. He asked her to send him a picture of it. While we were waiting for the signing to stop and the pictures to start I told Jaye what I wanted to say to TR for the pic. I chickened out. Jaye didn't...
Rob Sheridan walked in to take the pics. He's too cute. Anyway, when it was our turn we went up and Jaye said "Put Trent between the lesbians." Totally my joke. What I was going to say was "It's not like in the movies, huh?" but Justin, who was on my left started laughing so hard. I think that set TR off. He was trying to stay ready for the pic but a chuckle came out. There I am standing there next to him and he fucking chortled. It was seriously the most surreal thing that has ever happened to me.
I think we recovered nicely for the pic.. huh?
After the pics were taken and we were finally led back from backstage we got our merch, a funnel cake, and got to our seats. Amazing view. Tom Morello blew me away. Seriously. The things he can do with a guitar...
NIN was amazing, as always. I got some videos and pics. I was SOOOO happy that Jaye got to hear The Becoming. It's what she wanted most. I didn't get my song, but I had said before the show that I rather they play her song. ^_^ Thanks to the Ritalin I can remember songs(Maybe not in order, but I remember them without the aid of videos): Terrible Lie, Gave Up, Wish, The Way Out is Through, The Fragile, Echoplex, Physical, Hurt, March of the Pigs (I also remember that we got a flash of stomach too), Piggy, Now I'm Nothing, The Frail, The Wretched...
I was a little worn out by the time Jane's took the stage. I don't know much of their stuff. I was happy to go sit and relax up at the tables. I was getting tired of constantly having to move to let the couple next to us go to the bathroom and get more beer.
After the show we got to get some Waffle House with Deighe and Casee and their husbands and hang out and talk. It was cool to meet some twitterbitches. I want to meet you all! ^_^
So anyway.. Epic show. Amazing experience. And I'm a little worn out from writing three draining blogs in 3 hours or so. Maybe I'll edit this to make it better, but I'm sure you've all read Jaye's blog too to fill in the blanks.
» Listening: NIN - Something I Can Never Have «
» Feeling: melancholy «
If you know anything about me, you'll know I've been back in NIN land for a little over a year now. I love Jaye so HARD for that. I listened to Pretty Hate Machine so much in high school. Something I Can Never Have is my song. I got to see NIN live in '95. On the rail. Thanks to my ADHD I don't remember shit. Another reason I love Jaye so hard? She found live audio of the show. I had no idea what songs I heard. I didn't even remember Trent and Bowie sang together. Sometime after Lost Highway I wandered off, for lack of a better phrase. Like I've said before in a vlog: "If it's not 'OOOH! Trent shiney!' I'm gonna go 'Ooh, what's that over there?'"
I knew the singles but I missed The Fragility era, With Teeth, and all the fun of Year Zero. But, I'm ok with that. I am glad that I got to experience 3 shows since last year. I am grateful that Trent and Co. didn't skip over Missouri, like other acts tend to do. Though we would have found a way to drive out to another state to see a show.
I love the NINternet! Thanks to it I got to meet great and generous people. Like the guy who sent me a shirt, like my beloved one I wore to death in high school, no money asked. Or the guy who let our friend use his extra pre-sale ticket in Columbia, so she wouldn't have to wait in the regular line and be separated from us. Suzanne! She went to Rob Sheridan's garage sale and got a crap-ton of NIN freebies. She sent most of that out to the NINternet. She sent Staci, Rob's biggest fan, autographed gummi bear lamps. Jaye got a patch for her hat. I got another cool sticker for The Slip Car. I love my twitterbitches, who can always cheer me up and make me laugh.
The current NINJA tour is NIN's last. We knew come hell or high water we'd be at a show. We've been on a NINJA high since we got our tickets. When I sold my car we finally got a chance to do things we'd been planning forever. Like our tattoos. I knew I wanted something NIN related. I didn't want a straight up logo. It's too... common. I wanted something a little deeper. So, after some thinking I settled on the lyric that I kept coming back to. I opened up Adobe Illustrator and made it my own. And I'm quite happy with it:
The tatt was sooo cheap that we decided to get another tatt:
To commemorate the one that got away. Really, the drama from the show was so stupid. How could we not poke a little fun at ourselves? I was a little worried it might offend Erin, the woman who got the tambourine. We called a truce a while back. But, luckily she thought it was funny.
We also got to do something I've been wanting to do with my car for a long time now. I was wanting to change the color of my car completely since I got it. Didn't get to choose the color. But sometime after The Slip came out I looked at the car and thought.. "Hmm... how cool will that look?" So here it is:
Jaye did an amazing job. We just bought paint and tape and she taped it off and painted it on. The people that do get it, love it.
So basically, I know NIN will go away now. If not for good, for a while. But the cool and sweet people I met through my being a NIN fan will not. Right? <3
» Listening: NIN - God Given «
» Feeling: Subdued ^_^ «
Shit, it's been a while! I've been a busy bee. A busy bee with ADHD.
Speaking of which.. After 3 years of dead ends and therapy I am FINALLY DIAGNOSED! Yes, I have a nice little piece of paper that says that I am, in fact, ADHD. I feel like doing a victory dance on the face of that one bitch I saw at Burrell. After being there 5 minutes she declared I couldn't have it. I'm just depressed! FUCK YOU! My favorite line from her was "You're too overweight to have it." Um, excuse me? Just because I don't run around like a kid with it doesn't mean you should dismiss me like that. Especially since ADHD shows up differently in different people. Some people just don't have it like that. Especially women. You'd think that dumb bitch would know that.
But whatever. She's a miserable bitch and I am finally diagnosed. We go to a clinic run by a psychology school here and that means we've seen a lot of students. Five, in fact, and each one of them couldn't believe the unprofessionalism of the nurse practitioner I saw at Burrell.
But Tuesday morning I FINALLY got a script for Ritalin in my hot little hands. We're starting at the lowest dose and going from there. Jaye was following a Yahoo support group for spouses of people with ADHD and she saw a lot of people talk about how doctors always start out with too high of a dose. Some people even tend to hyperfocus. She brought up a story about one woman who could walk around the house and pick out all the places she could hang a noose. O_O I told her if that happened to me I'd probably walk around and be able to guess everyone's cup size or something.
I've been on the Ritalin for 4 days now and even at this low a dose it's kind of freaky how it's working. Jaye said that she has to get used to the new me. Before, when I was so quiet it was because I was mad at her. Tuesday night I got a glimpse at what Jaye has been going through the past 5 years. OMG. I am sooo sorry. Jaye was super excited about seeing NIN and was talkative in bed while I just wanted to go to sleep. I was annoyed after 5 minutes. I can't believe she went through it the whole time we've been together.
I'm quieter. The hyperactivity has ceased. I can remember the concert we saw Wednesday still. To put it in perspective, when we saw NIN last year and we were driving home I had to keep asking Jaye if they played a song or not.
But even two days later I can remember what they were wearing, songs they played. I can remember the fun of the meet and greet. I can still fucking see it in my head. This is like.. so epic. I am so fucking happy.
I remember Trent's cute little chuckle when we made him laugh. It's... so... perfect.
» Listening: NIN - The Becoming (Still) «
» Feeling: 50% exhausted; 40% accomplished; 10% pissy «
I'm almost too tired to blog. Today was my first day doing the job of assistant manager (though I don't have the title yet. They best retro pay me after today.)
The deposit was about 10x more than what I was used to counting so that was hard. There was a big snafu with the safe amount. Took me 3-4 hours to get everything done. Then, we find out that there's only one person scheduled 3-11. So, we had to run around and get things stocked and remade so he only had to worry about ringing up customers.
» Listening: NIN - Where is Everybody (Version) «
» Feeling: Sleepy «
And I thought my mini-conversation with Dave Navarro on twitter was cool!
Dave hosts an online radio show every Wednesday night. One which I always missed because of work. Tonight was the first night I could listen live. They take questions from callers (mostly twitter peeps, lolz). I sat there the first hour thinking, "Man, I wanna call in!" So.. I thought and thought. Then another call inspired my question. So, called... sat on hold... GOT TO ASK MY QUESTION! So exciting to talk to Dave on the phone. I was so freaking nervous till the call actually happened. I could only hear the end of it (there was a slight delay.) but I know I flubbed a little bit and totally had a hard time thinking about what I wanted to say. Cool though. I think I did ok. My twitterbitches thought I did ok.
I am exhausted now and think I'm going to bed in the very near future. Depends on if twitter activity dies now.
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Kourtnie on 04.02.09 @ 02:15 AM CST [No Comments]
Tuesday, March 31st
Sucky Plinky Prompts + Tired Blogger = Nada
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I'm trying to adjust myself back to working days. Ugh. I'm so tired right now. I've been up since 11pm last night. I'm cool, though. Don't work for another 22 hours. Plan is to go to bed around 10ish.
I'm try to be a better blogger once everything is straightened out again. Until then I'm catching up on 6teen and watching movies I haven't seen in a while. Anything to keep me awake.
I doubt any of this matters. Don't think anyone is actually reading this. >.<
Our chain bought out another chain. The other chain's management (a lot of it anyway) defected from our chain with no notice, meaning they aren't rehire-able by our chain. Which means, lots of opportunity for promotions in our chain.
Well, guess who got one of those promotions!? Yep. I heard about the promotion WEEKS ago but couldn't say anything. Waah. So, for the past few weeks I've been on edge waiting to here when I was moving. Also thinking that the whole thing would fall through and I'd be stuck working overnights forever. I orginally asked for them, but they're slowing killing me, I think.
Anyway, I got a call today from my manager, who started at the new store last Friday, saying tonight is my last overnight and I'll start at our new store on Wednesday! FUCKING YES! I am so happy right now. After lunch we went to visit and I got to see the store. It's got a kitchen. WOW. And someone else to do the cooking. YES! And it looks so fucking much cleaner than it did when I went in the first night I found out I was moving there.
That seems to be par for the course. The former chain's employees kept these stores a fucking mess. My manager said it took people FIFTEEN FUCKING HOURS to clean the kitchen area. Seriously.
So, I'm so fucking happy right now. I just got off 2 days off and I get 2 more off tomorrow and Tuesday
» Listening: some shit Jaye's playing «
» Feeling: Tired «
I'll tell you what I won't do: "...start decapitating zombies left and right!"
Um, anyway. I learned all I know about zombies from my (PRECIOUS!) Anita Blake books. If the zombie is still connected to it's animator and they're strong enough to control it (And assuming they didn't raise them for evil purposes) I'll just let the animator handle it.
If, however, they've gotten out of control I'll burn them. One of the only ways to really kill them. I mean, you can shoot them all you want but they're just gonna be angr(ier) zombies with holes all in them. Really though, I hope Edward is there with his flame thrower.
If we're gonna go all hypothetical here just call me a necromancer and I got it. I'd probably control the zombie and make it do my bidding. So, watch out, chick from Flyleaf. You might have a hoard of crazy-strong and intelligent zombies on your hands. The stronger the animator the more human-like the zombie appears. And the harder it is to get the zombie to realize it is, indeed, dead. Necromancers can do the latter. They can also control other types of undead, like vamps. Maybe even a Master of the City.
Especially if you become the human servant of a Master of the City. Then, watch it. You're gonna get so crazy-powerful you may scare even yourself. Makes for a good read. Um, wait, I'm supposed to talk about zombies...
Fuck the zombies though. I'm ALL ABOUT the vamps. RAAAAR.
Gist of this answer: If a hoard of zombies starts causing a ruckus, call me. I am The Executioner. I got this.
